SeveredSoul (8:05:25 PM): hey
x3 Ariesness (8:05:44 PM): hey. what's up?
SeveredSoul (8:05:53 PM): not much you?
x3 Ariesness (8:06:28 PM): working on a paper.
SeveredSoul (8:06:36 PM): oh
x3 Ariesness (8:06:38 PM): how have you been? i haven't talked to you in forever
SeveredSoul (8:07:01 PM): I guess Ive been good, what about you?
x3 Ariesness (8:07:23 PM): ok, i guess
x3 Ariesness (8:07:36 PM): i turn 18 this week ^_^
SeveredSoul (8:07:48 PM): thats cool
x3 Ariesness (8:08:17 PM): yeah. saving up some money. i think i want a tattoo
SeveredSoul (8:08:56 PM): yea, that sounds cool
x3 Ariesness (8:09:36 PM): i'm terrified of needles though. so i'm going to freak out while i wait
x3 Ariesness (8:10:22 PM): you ever wanted a tattoo?
SeveredSoul (8:10:58 PM): yea, I used too, but never got one, I'll probably end up gettin one whenever it happens, but its no rush, I'll probably get more piercings first
x3 Ariesness (8:11:16 PM): what else do you want pierced?
SeveredSoul (8:12:12 PM): maybe my lip again, maybe my tongue again, my eyebrow maybe, I'm not sure yet
x3 Ariesness (8:12:31 PM): i didn't know you could get more than one in your tongue
SeveredSoul (8:12:59 PM): yea, it hurts, but its possible and Ive kinda wanted it for awhile
x3 Ariesness (8:13:24 PM): did the first one hurt?
SeveredSoul (8:13:55 PM): not really, the clamps they put on hurt the worst
x3 Ariesness (8:14:56 PM): i think i might want to get my nose or eyebrow pierced. not sure which
SeveredSoul (8:16:04 PM): yea
SeveredSoul (8:16:13 PM): so, how're you and brian?
x3 Ariesness (8:16:47 PM): for the most part, good. except i keep hearing a lot of shit about him flirting with his ex
SeveredSoul (8:17:01 PM): who?
x3 Ariesness (8:17:29 PM): katie
SeveredSoul (8:17:38 PM): katie who?
x3 Ariesness (8:17:45 PM): scott
x3 Ariesness (8:17:52 PM): you know her?
SeveredSoul (8:17:54 PM): dont know her
x3 Ariesness (8:18:13 PM): she's like a sophomore
SeveredSoul (8:18:36 PM): I was dropped out before she got there then
x3 Ariesness (8:19:32 PM): yeah, but other than her, things are ok
SeveredSoul (8:20:08 PM): well I dont know her and I hardly ever talk to brian, so I cant really judge on anything, but I guess just hope for the best
SeveredSoul (8:20:30 PM): you and him got any plans for your bday?
x3 Ariesness (8:21:04 PM): i dunno what's gonna happen though. i think he wants to get back with her but doesn't know how to tell me.
x3 Ariesness (8:21:09 PM): yeah, kinda.
x3 Ariesness (8:21:18 PM): not sure what we're gonna do though
SeveredSoul (8:22:21 PM): well just hope for the best and dont worry about shit like that, things happens, and it's better to worry about them when they happen instead of bringin yourself down expectin things to happen, you know?
x3 Ariesness (8:24:22 PM): but it feels like it is happening now. this shit with him flirting with her has been gonig on for months and has just gotten worse.
SeveredSoul (8:24:45 PM): well maybe you should say something about it
x3 Ariesness (8:26:45 PM): i have. we've talked about it. he says he won't do it anymore and that he wants to be with me. but i still feel like deep down, his heart belongs to her. when i was with my last ex, i spent like 3 weeks wanting to leave him, but didn't know how. i'm scared that's how he's feeling
SeveredSoul (8:28:03 PM): well tell him how you're feelin and tell him that you know what he said but you feel like he's unsure what he wants
x3 Ariesness (8:28:40 PM): i have. i guess i'll just have to find out with time, right?
SeveredSoul (8:29:30 PM): I guess
SeveredSoul (8:30:50 PM): but you gotta just try to trust I guess, its hard for me to trust people and relationships, but thats all you can do
x3 Ariesness (8:31:16 PM): thanks for listening to all this. i know you probably don't want to hear all this crap. but i really appreciate. you're a really nice guy.
SeveredSoul (8:31:58 PM): I'm a really nice guy? I feel like I'm getting let down or something...
x3 Ariesness (8:32:19 PM): why?
x3 Ariesness (8:32:31 PM): just complimenting you
SeveredSoul (8:32:38 PM): isnt that what girls say when they're not interested in a guy>?
x3 Ariesness (8:32:53 PM): not neccessarily
SeveredSoul (8:34:01 PM): lol
SeveredSoul (8:34:28 PM): I bet, but its cool, I wouldnt really expect you to like me
x3 Ariesness (8:34:38 PM): why not?
SeveredSoul (8:35:00 PM): I dont know, you just dont seem like the type of person who would go for me
x3 Ariesness (8:35:45 PM): i used to have a big crush on you actually. :P
SeveredSoul (8:36:00 PM): used too
SeveredSoul (8:36:23 PM): used to*
SeveredSoul (8:36:50 PM): that was forever ago
x3 Ariesness (8:37:03 PM): i still have a little crush, to be honest
SeveredSoul (8:38:30 PM): how do you have a crush if you havent seen me/talked to me in like 3-4 years
SeveredSoul (8:38:39 PM): ?
x3 Ariesness (8:39:21 PM): because we have talked. lol
x3 Ariesness (8:39:42 PM): you forgot?
SeveredSoul (8:40:20 PM): forgot what?
x3 Ariesness (8:41:07 PM): that for awhile there we were talking a lot. on here and myspace.
SeveredSoul (8:41:49 PM): yea, but I didnt think that meant anything to you, I just figured you were datin Brian and I was just this dude who you talked to every now and then
x3 Ariesness (8:43:31 PM): Just because I'm with Brian doesn't mean I can't enjoy talknig to you.
x3 Ariesness (8:45:19 PM): I have a little crush on you because i like talking to you. but i'll leave you alone if that's what you want. i love brian. i wouldn't do anything to mess up things with him.
SeveredSoul (8:46:49 PM): I wouldnt wanna ever stop talking to you, but I want you to know that when the day comes that you're single, I dont wanna be thought of as just a friend, I wanna be thought of as a guy who you can talk to who thinks you're beautiful and is very interested in you
x3 Ariesness (8:47:56 PM): Then you oughta im me or send me a message on myspace so I know you still know who I am. Lol :P
SeveredSoul (8:48:23 PM): are you kiddin? how could I forget such a pretty face? ;-)
SeveredSoul (8:48:52 PM): brb
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SeveredSoul (8:49:58 PM): k Im back
x3 Ariesness (8:50:43 PM): welcome back
SeveredSoul (8:51:05 PM): thanks
x3 Ariesness (8:52:08 PM): i was reminded today jsut how much i hated needles
SeveredSoul (8:52:30 PM): why?
x3 Ariesness (8:52:55 PM): i signed up to donate blood for the red cross
SeveredSoul (8:54:04 PM): ewwwwwwww
x3 Ariesness (8:54:14 PM): lol.
x3 Ariesness (8:55:16 PM): i went through all of the paperwork and got my finger pricked and everything. and waited for an hour and a half. and when I finally got up to do it. I freaked out.
x3 Ariesness (8:55:35 PM): I started crying and shit and they said they couldn't do it if i was reacting like that already
SeveredSoul (8:56:05 PM): well it makes you a nice person to wanna do it, but totally crazy if you hate needles
x3 Ariesness (8:56:58 PM): lol. i know right. when people found out i was doing it even though i hate needles, they gave me all these funny looks.
x3 Ariesness (8:57:02 PM): i guess they were right.
x3 Ariesness (8:57:07 PM): i hate that though
x3 Ariesness (8:57:15 PM): i really wanted to make it through
SeveredSoul (8:57:21 PM): lol
SeveredSoul (8:59:06 PM): well im proud of you
x3 Ariesness (8:59:12 PM): awww, thanks
x3 Ariesness (9:01:57 PM): would you ever donate blood?
SeveredSoul (9:02:30 PM): nope, couldnt do it, dont like the thought of it
x3 Ariesness (9:02:49 PM): aww, you don't like the sight of blood?
SeveredSoul (9:03:35 PM): nah, the sight of blood is fine with me, haha, I dont like a needle in me takin blood out, for some reason I used to be okay with that type of shit, but not anymore for some reason
x3 Ariesness (9:03:45 PM): awww
SeveredSoul (9:07:31 PM): so why did you wanna give blood so bad?
x3 Ariesness (9:08:57 PM): brian's done it a few times before. and I wanted to be able to help someone. my great grandma has a rare blood type, so there's a chance I do too. and if i do, there's someone out there that could really use it
SeveredSoul (9:10:24 PM): well thats a thoughtful thing
x3 Ariesness (9:10:59 PM): i guess
x3 Ariesness (9:11:43 PM): have you seen the hills have eyes?
x3 Ariesness (9:12:02 PM): i jsut saw the preview for the second one
SeveredSoul (9:12:03 PM): nope, long story, but the movie itself, pisses me off
x3 Ariesness (9:12:10 PM): why?
SeveredSoul (9:13:07 PM): just a girl and a friend were watchin it when they were tryin to mess around behind my back, and the friend who was my best friend at the time knew I liked the girl and me and the girl had been messina round
x3 Ariesness (9:14:41 PM): awww, i'm sorry. that's awful. doesn't sound like he was too good of a friend.
SeveredSoul (9:16:14 PM): it sucked, but I guess Im kinda over that, hes been there for me for everything else and was there for me when me and Teresa broke up and Ive always been there for him, since then (,last summer) we've pretty much put it behind us and all, I love him, hes like a brother to me, but we all make mistakes
x3 Ariesness (9:18:08 PM): I guess. I don't know if I could forgive someone so easily. it's really great of you that you can. Told ya you're a nice guy. :P
x3 Ariesness (9:18:27 PM): What happened with you and Teresa, if you don't mind me asking?
SeveredSoul (9:19:12 PM): well we didnt talk for like 3-4 months and I wouldve loved to punch his teeth in, but the moment never came, I'm a really aggressive person, but with time I chill out
SeveredSoul (9:21:20 PM): umm, me and Teresa dated for 10 months, and I'd cheated on her like 2 times (and she'd been cheating on me with some guy for like the last 4 months we were together, but I didnt find out until after the breakup) and I knew I made mistakes with cheatin on her and I loved her a lot, but we argued and I knew she was cheatin on me, but I didnt wanna be without her, and then like a week after prom, she heard something about me cheatin on her and she left me, and it was really hard for me to deal with because
SeveredSoul (9:23:46 PM): I knew I had made mistakes that I couldnt change and it was my second long relationship that didnt work out and I started to feel like things would never work out for me and I've always been a kinda depressed person and I kinda just got really upset about the whole thing and Josh hadnt really talked to me about it much and then about 3-4 days after we broke up, I was with Josh and some friends and we went to play pool and I was gettin money outta my wallet and saw her picture and I just left and started
SeveredSoul (9:24:45 PM): crying and I was just mad at myself and Josh followed me just put his arm around me while I was crying and hes the only person whos really seen me completely breakdown like that and he was there for me, and I'll never forget that no matter what happens
SeveredSoul (9:25:23 PM): but if I look back on that relationship I can kinda see where it was a downfall know matter what I did, it just wasnt meant to work out
x3 Ariesness (9:26:02 PM): why did you cheat on her if you loved her?
SeveredSoul (9:27:23 PM): I dont really know, I was always so insecure about whether she was cheatin on me or not and a lot of the time I felt like she wasnt really trying to be there for me and I got caught up in things where I thought maybe I'd be happier, and things happened
SeveredSoul (9:27:52 PM): theres not really an excuse on why people cheat, its not something Im proud of, but it happened
SeveredSoul (9:29:56 PM): thats why I havent been in a serious relationship in like a year, because I want something thats gonan work out, I dont wanna make those some mistakes, I wanna fall in love again and get lost in it
x3 Ariesness (9:30:46 PM): I'm sorry you had to go through all of that. You deserve to be happy. You really do.
x3 Ariesness (9:32:20 PM): you always have to go through bad times to find good ones. the badder the first, the greater the second
x3 Ariesness (9:32:33 PM): and yes, i know badder isn't a word. Lol :P
SeveredSoul (9:34:38 PM): well Ive been through bad times and good times, I know I can always find another good time, I just wanna make it the best I possibly can, I used to just blame everyone else for shit, but I gotta fix myself before anything can change
x3 Ariesness (9:35:23 PM): that's very wise of you. you'll find someone though. I know it. Good guys always find someone.
SeveredSoul (9:35:58 PM): Im not all good
SeveredSoul (9:36:06 PM): lol
x3 Ariesness (9:36:17 PM): lol. oh really?
SeveredSoul (9:36:58 PM): of course, do you remember me as bein the teachers pet?
x3 Ariesness (9:37:41 PM): there's a difference between being a good guy and a goody-goody. :P
SeveredSoul (9:39:19 PM): oh, ok
SeveredSoul (9:39:47 PM): so how would you describe a good guy?
x3 Ariesness (9:40:41 PM): someone you can talk to and get an honest answer, someone who listens and cares, someone you can spend time with and have a great time
SeveredSoul (9:41:48 PM): but is it possible to be that guy, but still yell and argue and to protective and possessive?
x3 Ariesness (9:42:40 PM): yes
x3 Ariesness (9:44:30 PM): if you're honest with someone, then you won't always see eye to eye on something. but if you can be honest and fight about something and still love that person at the end of the day, then you're a great guy. And being protective and possessive just shows that you care.
SeveredSoul (9:44:58 PM): well a lot of girls get tired of it
x3 Ariesness (9:45:51 PM): then maybe you're not finding the right girls.
SeveredSoul (9:46:11 PM): maybe Im talkin to one
SeveredSoul (9:46:16 PM): ;-)
x3 Ariesness (9:46:28 PM): you never know :P
SeveredSoul (9:47:32 PM): for some reason, I could definitely see me and you
x3 Ariesness (9:48:20 PM): why?
x3 Ariesness (9:48:28 PM): i'm a loser. :P
SeveredSoul (9:49:37 PM): because you're easy to talk to, and I want/need someone like that, you're beautiful, and I think it'd make everyday in my life better just to be able to kiss you and call you mine
x3 Ariesness (9:51:42 PM): we're really different though. i'm a loser, remember? :P
SeveredSoul (9:52:01 PM): and whats so different between me and you?
x3 Ariesness (9:54:26 PM): Since elementary school, i've been the quintessential loser. and everyone knows it. and it has never changed. the guys i grew up with don't look twice at me. i'm nothing.
SeveredSoul (9:54:49 PM): and what am I?
x3 Ariesness (9:58:05 PM): you were always the bad boy. and i never thought i would ever stand a chance. you're outspoken and always having fun and actually going out there and living life.
SeveredSoul (10:00:20 PM): Im outspoken because I believe in what I say and refuse to be pushed around, and I live life whatever way I can, I've been in trouble and locked up and I've learned from a lot of things. But I'm an emotional person and I love to read and sit at home and watch the discovery and history channels a lot too, so I'm not what a lot of people think
x3 Ariesness (10:00:43 PM): that's really cool
SeveredSoul (10:01:22 PM): and if things were and are the way you say, then wouldn't it be a fairy tale type of story?
SeveredSoul (10:02:25 PM): the loser girl and the bad boy?
SeveredSoul (10:02:34 PM): fall in love
x3 Ariesness (10:02:48 PM): lol
SeveredSoul (10:04:00 PM): well, whether you think you're a loser or not, I think you're beautiful and an amazing person and it'd be a dream come true to be layin in bed with you, holdin you in my arms, and kissin you
x3 Ariesness (10:04:47 PM): why? you could get any girl you wanted.
SeveredSoul (10:05:13 PM): and what makes you so sure you're not the one girl I want?
x3 Ariesness (10:05:41 PM): am i?
SeveredSoul (10:06:15 PM): .......yea... you are
x3 Ariesness (10:06:56 PM): even though I have a boyfriend?
SeveredSoul (10:07:49 PM): I cant change that fact, I cant help it if you're taken, it wont change the feelin I have
x3 Ariesness (10:08:39 PM): you're a great guy
SeveredSoul (10:08:57 PM): wow, sounds like another let down
x3 Ariesness (10:12:22 PM): it's not. but i do have a boyfriend. and i love him. i don't know what's going to happen with him, but the last thing i want is to hurt either of you
SeveredSoul (10:13:49 PM): well all I can say is, I wouldn't mind being with you and fallin in love with you, being there for you and honest with you, and if you decide thats something you want and if it hasnt been too long and things havent changed, then I'm here waiting
x3 Ariesness (10:16:50 PM): we'll just have to see how things go
SeveredSoul (10:17:23 PM): well I just want you to know that I'll treat you how you deserve to be treated, but I wont be around forever waiting
SeveredSoul (10:17:35 PM): but I'm gonna go
x3 Ariesness (10:17:53 PM): alright. i gotta go too. talk to you again sometime soon?
SeveredSoul (10:17:55 PM): so write me on Myspace sometime soon
x3 Ariesness (10:18:01 PM): lol
SeveredSoul (10:18:08 PM): bye sexy
x3 Ariesness (10:18:24 PM): c ya